in less than 2 weeks high school is about to end. i know i've written more than one entry about graduation but there can never be enough entries about the end of everything i loved.
through the past four years of my life i've learned so many different things. i've learned that no matter how hard you try to follow your plan there are uncontrolable forces that will disrupt them. i've learned that taking chances works side-by-side with boundaries. i've learned that there is a very thick line between believing in yourself and too much air in your head. i've learned how to accept everythng that happens in life because, in the end, everything will fall into place and you will see things in a different perspective. most importantly, i've learned how to love and let go.
no matter how much i dislike my school there is still a part of me that will miss it. i grew up there and it will always be special. even though it hasn't always delivered to all my expectations it is still an integral part of my growth. i am comfortable in that place. comfortable, not in terms of its water supply, food production, and availability of facilities...but i will always feel at home in it. i don't know why. maybe because i did not only spend four years of my life in that place but i spent more than thirteen years of my existence there.
i have met so many people in my school. a few of them left while most of them stayed behind and finished the high school rollercoaster with me. whether they stayed or they left...i love them all. i am so thankful for everything that i went through with my schoolmates. thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you...thank you.
the coming days will serve as our last hurrah. our last few days to say whatever we have to say and do whatever we have to do. i will do my best to do my part but you have to do yours to.
i love all of you, i really do.
go class of 2007...we survived. =)
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i am so addicted to this song. do i relate? haha. that's for you to decipher.
The End of Everything I Love
by: Daphne Loves Derby
"take it or leave it" were the words you chose over mine
so much reminds me of you
and i miss your smile.
10:01 and this night is gone
i spent it ill while the world moves on
if time alone was the brushed that paints
with solace and misfortunate
my life would be a work of art.
but ive seen this all before
things shouldnt have gone this far
we shouldnt have gotten so close
for what made me believe
was this the girl who made him forget all hes known
everytime he looked into her eyes
was it the boy who decided to give up his heart and run away
today is gone
tomorrow's mine but im still alone (breath deep)
im still alone (keep breathing)
im still alone (keep singing)
im still alone
im still alone (keep breathing)
im still alone without you
bleeding out so much more
spilling blood since you left
if i had a second chance id live my life waiting to death
so i walked to the store
spent a buck fifty in quarters
to buy the ring you said you liked
cuz im thinking of you now
now i drive to the coast
the place where i drowned all my fears
let the water set me free
im screaming, cant you hear?
or is this the end of everything i love
or are we destined for more?
why cant you look me in the eyes and tell me what you want to
i know you want to.. so bad.. so bad
but ive seen this all before
things shouldnt have gone this far
we shouldnt have gotten so close
what made me believe?
it was you who made me forget all i had known
everytimg i looked into your eyes
and it was me who decided to give up my heart and run away
today is gone
tomorrow's mine but im still alone
im still alone
im still alone
im still alone
im still alone
im still alone without you
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niKay wrote this story at..
6:38 AM
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