"and also being a sadistic non-conformist in this WHITE-SKIN-ADDICTED-PHILIPPINES, i prefer to be proud of my beautiful tanned shimmy than to splurge on Green Papaya Soaps or getting skin bleaches whatever you call it!"
i agree. who said this? nicki did [a friend i met during the summer camp; i linked her].
im very happy with my melanin-full epidermis. it's nice to have a "year-long tan" [as others might put it. i don't intend to modify my skin color because it's simply beautiful. the onLy reason i put sunscreen on when i play golf or go swim is because i want to prevent harmful UV rays from attacking me.
when we go to europe or north america we are praised by their people because they envy the golden hue of our skin. we are flooded with compLiments and they ask us what we do in order to maintain it. they try so hard to duplicate tanned skin. they spend thousands of pesos just to be able to get something remoteLy cLose to what we are aLready bLessed with.
shouLdn't we feeL good about this? shouLdn't we be even prouder of what we have? we shouLd. but most of us aren't.
in our side of the worLd, heaps of whitening products are being purchased by most of the population. both sexes purchase these whitening products: from girls...to boys. almost everyone wants to achieve lighter skin. almost everyone wants to change what they aLready have. there are even those who are aLready light-skinned yet they stiLL use whitening lotions, soaps, and other sorts of products that promise lighter skin. they are preventing themselved from being tan! why? what is so terribLe about being tan? are you afraid of being teased by others or do you simply succumb to the deceitful media that has tagged lighter skin as the only type of beautiful skin?
read: the caucasians are trying hard to get our skin, while we are trying just as hard to get lighter skin.
if you are morphing yourself into something else, then your skin is not to blame...it is your fault. you should change your outlook. if they start selling love-of-self pills, self-confidence creams, and self-acceptance soaps you should go purchase tons of those products because you don't need whitening products [well, maybe you do, if you have dark elbows and knees] or self-tanners.
we always want what we don't have. we are simply never satisfied. how ironic. if only we could change...oh wait, we can change. some people are just too weak to do so.
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Monday, May 29, 2006
:: * love ko la salle * ::
i finished fiLLing up my UP appLication form and i shaLL pass it tomorrow. but the thing is i don't want to go to UP. i just want to take the UPCAT. haha.
i reaLLy want to pass DLSU. i love that schooL. it is MY schooL.
ateneo is a great schooL and UP is ok but DLSU is the one for me. i bLeed green. they are the best when it comes to computer courses and i intend to take up a computer course [BS-ICTM].
i've aLways wanted to be a La Sallian. it's my dream schooL. that dream got bigger when i attended their summer camp. every singLe day in DLSU was so great. just being in the campus was amazing. i know that it isn't the cleanest, or the best located university but those things are superficiaL. it's how La Sallians turn up to be that matters. the vaLues that the La Sallian community instills within every student is what counts. and most importantLy, it's the green McDonaLds that reaLLy made me faLL in love with the schooL [haha.].
man, i reaLLy want to pass DLSU. everyone is teLLing me that i wiLL get in but i won't let those comments get to my head because there is stiLL a possibiLity that i won't [God forbid]. i don't know what wiLL hapPen if i don't get in DLSU. it wiLL probabLy ruin me. i hope i don't faiL. pray for me.
oh yes. some of my La Salle merchandise. cLearLy: love ko la salle! haha.
this was awarded to me during the summer camp. "ms. catch 2011" means that i am the person who is most likeLy to graduate from la salle. haha. how accurate. =)by the way, my feLLow campers voted for me...thanks u guys. =)
these are the three certificates i received from the summer camp. one of them is just a certificate of recognition, while the other two are real awards. i already mentioned the other one. the other one is the outstanding summer camper award. the campers didn't vote on this award. i think the facilitators did. thank you. it's basicaLLy seLf-expLantory. perks of this award: La Salle bag and they will contact me regarding my entry in DLSU. yey. :)
i'm not mayabang...more like proud.
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Thursday, May 25, 2006
:: * love thy clock * ::
hello mr. clock man. that's how i know you. you make me appreciate the clock more.
now, i now your name. how? i checked list. how stalker-like, i guess.
i tried to find you in the archive of people. i searched through a hundred names but none of them was yours. it saddened me. but i will persevere and i will find you.
you immediately caught my attention with your messy hair and deep stare. how intriguing. i aspire to know more about you. i will stalk you, if i have to. i have warned you. be ready for me.
see you tomorrow. and someday we will talk. but for now, i will have to be satisfied with checking the clock even if i have a watch of my own. i will never forget you, mr. clock man.
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Tuesday, May 23, 2006
:: * coLLege * ::
i haven't updated for quite some time because i've been attending review classes at MSA. so far, so good.
it's starting to sink in: im going to graduate by the end of this school year. wow. i can't wait. i want to go to college already. i want to make new friends and get a new boyfriend [haha.] =)
i'm starting to fill my UP application form up. i don't have a course in UP. i don't want to go to UP. i just want to experience the UPCAT. haha. ateneo is not out of the question but i still don't have a course there, too. one school i'm sure of is DLSU. i have a course [BS-ICTM], i've been around the campus, and they will contact me regarding my application there [thanks to my outstanding summer camper award]. i just have to apply and pass the DLSU-CET...and i'm scared. i know a couple of people who are smart yet they didn't pass UP, ateneo or la salle. i can't be like that. i have to pass DLSU. i have to.
P.S. i don't want to go back to school.
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Sunday, May 14, 2006
:: * purpose * ::
"the world is my country, all mankind are my brethren, and to do good is my religion."
i've been looking for ways on how i can make a difference and finally God has given me a great opportunity to do so. He lead me to World Vision. it is an international organization that aims to uplift the lives of the less fortunate...especially children. what did i do to get involved? i sponsored a child. i am sending a child to school. her name is jessica domingo. she is only eleven years old yet she is living a life a hundred times worse than mine but thanks to world vision, i am slowly leading her to a better and brighter future and all it takes is PhP 450 a month. think about it...if you can spend that much on a single shirt why not spend the cash on a gift that would change a child's life. in fact this PhP 450 will go a long way...it will finance the schooling of a child, take care of her/his family and build projects for her/his community. i made a choice and i feel great. i want you to feel the way i am feeling today. it's time for you to make a decision. would you be satisfied with simply pitying the children who can't afford to go to school or would you rather make a difference and change their lives for the better? we have to help our fellowmen because if we won't do it no one else will.
you may not be able to change the world but you can change the life of one child.
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Thursday, May 11, 2006
:: * randomosity * ::
update on my life..if you care...stalker...haha...
1. francene arrived from the states yesterday. finally. she has been there too long. we left at the same time and i came back 5 weeks earlier than she did! oyyy...boy, did i miss her. i was the first person she called...and i'm glad...we talked about a ton of stuff. we talked about the places we went to....in n out burger...jamba juice...cheap shopping...and airplanes. im glad she's back home.
2. it's raining. mai gawd. it rained last night but i thought it was just a mild shower. i woke up this morning only to be greeted by a gloomy sky...and it was still hot. no sign of cold wind...or any form of wind. a storm is coming and i assume some chilly wind is coming with it. everyone needs a break from this crappy [too] hot weather.
that's it...felt like blogging so i did...even if i didn't have anything important to say...haha...:) ciao ;)
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Monday, May 08, 2006
:: * when boredom strikes * ::
hey there. my brothers and i will be having another one of our bonding moments later. we'll be going to town just to chill. i enjoy chilling with them. it relaxes me yet it makes me feel mature. i love it. i love my brothers, so don't mess with them or i will kill your ass.
anyhoo, i was blog-hopping and i saw a test that i should take. it's a test about how evil i am. here are the results. btw, thanks to ate beck for posting her results and sharing them to the world.
my results: | You Are 46% Evil |
 You are evil, but you haven't yet mastered the dark side.
Fear not though - you are on your way to world domination. |
then, i thought to myself...i should take a whole bunch of other quizzes...so i did. haha. enjoy. :)
| You Belong in Paris |
 You enjoy all that life has to offer, and you can appreciate the fine tastes and sites of Paris.
You're the perfect person to wander the streets of Paris aimlessly, enjoying architecture and a crepe. |
What European City Do You Belong In?
| You are a Brainy Girl! |
 Whether you're an official student or a casual learner, you enjoy hitting the books.
You know a little bit about everything, and you're always dying to know more.
For a guy to win your heart, he's got to share some of your intellectual interests.
A awesome book collection of his own doesn't hurt either! |
| Your Dream Engagement Ring Has a Heart Diamond! |
 You wear your heart on your sleeve, so of course you should also wear it on your ring.
A heart diamond is the perfect choice for highlighting your passionate disposition.
Only a true romantic can get away with wearing this ring. Luckily, that's you.
And only a true romantic can give you this ring, so make sure you find him...! |
| You Are A Professional Girlfriend! |
 You are the perfect girlfriend - big surprise!
Heaven knows you've had enough practice. That's why you're a total pro.
If there was an Emily Post of girlfriends, it would be you.
You know how to act in every situation ... to make both you and your guy happy. |
What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?
| Your Flirt Quotient |
 You are 67% Flirt |
How Much of a Flirt Are You?
| You Are Most Like Charlotte! |
 You are the ultimate romantic idealist
You've been hurt before, but that hasn't caused you to give up on love.
If anything, your resolve to fall in love is stronger than ever.
And it's this feminine optimism that men find most appealing about you.
Romantic prediction: That guy you are seeing (or crushing on)?
Could be very serious - if you play your cards right! |
Which Sex and the City Vixen Are You?
| Your Reputation Is: Mean Girl |
 You rule through teasing and intimidation..
Yet, people would give the world to be your friend |
| You Are a Boy Shorts Bikini! |
 You're a sexy girl, but you don't have to let everything hang out to prove it. |
| You are Sneakers! |
 You're an active girl, who's all about function
You dress for the occasion - comfort comes first
Your perfect guy? Someone who can keep up with you.
You'll find him - but you might have to slow down to see him! |
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Sunday, May 07, 2006
:: * in life, the only thing permanent is change ::
for the past thirty minutes i have been trying to find some form of sadness within me just so i can write something "dramatic" but i have come to discover that i am simply too happy to find anything of that sort...and im glad. but one thing saddens me...this is all temporary. sooner or later i will be put down by terrible news and that's just scary because i am EXTREMELY happy right now and the gravity of sadness that would envelope me afterwards is usually equal to if not, greater than my happiness right now. *sighs*
" in life the only thing permanent is CHANGE... "
yes, unfortunately that is the truth. the problem is i am not too good on dealing with change. i find it difficult to let go of many things. here are some examples:
1. i keep A LOT of documents. i have a bunch of envelopes that store them. i have old test papers, school circulars, various printed material, etc. i just can't manage to throw them away. i keep on telling myself that someday i will need these and i will regret throwing them...so i don't throw them. haha.
2. i have a couple of gigantic memory boxes that are super full. i keep everything. i have tickets, receipts, cards, wrapping paper, ribbon, little notes, and a whole bunch of other stuff. why do i keep these things? well, sometimes when i feel the need to reminisce i open these boxes to check out the things in them and i find myself quite
entertained. most of these things bring good memories back while some summon the
sad encounters of my past. good or bad i still check them and i try to remind myself of how i was back then. i enjoy this...a lot.. i can see the evolution of me. it's amazing really. you rediscover the circumstances that made you who you are today.
3. it's so hard for me to say goodbye
those who are leaving. i get all emotional when i know that someone is leaving. even if they are just going on a vacation of some sort it saddens me quite a bit and if a person leaves and will never come back it destroys me. i
get lost for quite some time. i cry..a lot. i begin to feel weak and incomplete. it's just so hard to let go of people you have made memories with. [e.g. DLSU summer camp, a couple of my friends leaving] it takes me months to recover. it is simply difficult for me to let go. i try to hold to these people but most of the time the circumstance just won't allow me to do so.
i know that by the end of this coming school year...i will have more documents stored, another memory box full, and bucket loads of tears for everyone i have to say goodbye to.
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Thursday, May 04, 2006
:: * first officiaL entRy * ::
i love this year's summer vacation. :) i don't want it to end. i have met a lot of people and will probably meet more people once I start my review classes. i love love love it. :)
i don't want this summer break to end because i am not looking forward to senior year. it's just not exciting for me. it's actually saddening. why? well, two of the best teachers i have ever had are no longer there. T. Tina, the best history teacher in the whole world [no exaggeration], is leaving for Qatar and T. Kristin, a person who has taught us all to appreciate and love literature, is leaving too because she just feels it's time for her to move on. thank God T. Irene is staying. i like her. she's a good math teacher you just really need to listen to her. even if you don't take down notes you would be fine [although it is best to write the stuff she discusses down]. a lot of people are annoyed by her and they even think that she is an incompetent teacher but i beg to disagree. i have learned a lot from her and the lessons are easier to understand because of the way she presents them. but i can't get pissed at the people who don't like her because we are all different. we have different ways of comprehending things. oh...wait, another teacher is leaving...T. Tim. mai gawd. why? i don't know. i love T. Tim. he is such an awesome computer teacher. i get his discussions easily and he isn't boring. because of him i have learned to appreciate the power of computers [wow, how nerdy does that sound?]. oh, and T. Joy L. is left too. she's the best department head. she knows how to discipline us and she knows how let us have fun. she's amazing. lastly, i will no longer be with my class...romulo. it's just so depressing. i learned to love romulo. we just have an awesome time with each other. it was really the best class i have ever had. we completed each other. romulo was my support group. they were always there. this year we will be separated and i don't know how things are going to turn out.
i will really miss T. Tina. the impact she has made in my life is difficult to put into words but i will try to do so. the first time i encountered her was freshman year. i thought of her as the prudish little fun sucker that would make my high school years unbearable. but once i stepped onto my sophomore year my view of her changed. [probably because i changed] i suddenly had this high respect for her. i looked forward to attending her AP classes and i took down everything she said. there were a few times that she got pissed and she would do a long sermon but never did i have any negative feelings about her outbreaks of anger. somehow, i understood her and i paid attention to every single thing she said. junior was the best. she was our adviser and she advised us well. she made run for student council secretary and at first i didn't want to but in the end i loved her for giving me the push that i needed. our class tried real hard to not be a disappointment but we are teenagers and there were a few times that we pissed her off. she got mad, she talked...a lot, we listened and we understood. we loved her for talking to us in that way. she treated us in the way that we were supposed to be treated. i thank her for a million things but there are a few things that really stand out. she taught me [well, us] to love our country and to be proud that we are Filipinos. because of her i have strong opinions about nationalism and i deem those who are not proud of their motherland as stupid. she indirectly made me mature. she didn't tell me face-to-face that i had to grow up but i just felt like i needed to mature because of her. i wanted her to see the best of me at all times and i have no idea why but i guess that's a good this because i changed for the better. never will i forget her. she will always be one of the special people. now, she will go to another territory and i know that there will be other kids that will be moved by her. thank you t. tina.
last summer i predicted that my junior year would be terrible but it turned out to be one of the best years ever. this summer i am predicting a terrible year. i do hope that i will once again be proven wrong.
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:: * summer lovin' * ::
hey. it's summer once again ang i've decided to make a brand new blog. my previous blog died. haha. anyhoo, i miss expressing my emotions through writing. i will "contruct" this blog because it looks like crap right now. haha. ok, ciao! ;)
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