[U]ser[F]riendly[S]exy[S]tar

.:16 years old:.
.:MDM class of 2007:.

[[ THINGS I LOVE ]]

.:my family:.
.:my friends:.
.:God:.
.:sushi and pasta:.
.:helping people out:.
.:charity:.
.:badminton:.
.:soccer and soccer players:.
.:drummers:.
.:Sergio Aguero:.
.:the arcade:.
.:Magic Sing:.
.:De La Salle Green Archers:.
.:being a Filipino:.
.:being a woman:.
.:BEING MYSELF:.

[[ I WANT TO]]

*help the less fortunate
*be an asset, not a liability
*graduate with honors
*get into DLSU or ADMU
*meet the man of my dreams [hopefully, he's Australian or European]
*if i won't meet the man of my dreams can i have Sergio Aguero instead?
*keep my family and friends safe
*get rich then, establish my own charity
*study in Australia

Wednesday, August 30, 2006

:: *panahon na* ::

"Sometimes people feel pain in one point in their lives and never want to feel pain again. They become numb, traumatized and forever changed because of one single moment in their life that practically shattered the very foundations of their outlook on love. That's why I believe that old flames should stay old so we can grow, so we can discover new things and learn new lessons. Old flames hold us back from growing, from moving forward and from making the most out of life. Old flames are great love stories, great for emo-moments, for sharing and for reminiscing, but not great for rekindling and going through again. Once is enough..Tama na yun because some people, no matter how strong they may seem, when they're all alone at the end of the day, you have no idea how little pain they can tolerate in their lives that it holds them back forever."

-samantha nunez, a highly quotable person

kinailangan ko lang talagang ilagay ito sa blog ko. medyo natamaan kasi ako eh. parang ako yung nilalarawan. ang saya diba? tama nga nman ang aking pinsan. minsan kailangan na natin kalimutan ang mga sakit ng nakaraan dahil ito ang pumipigil sa atin upang makaranas ng matinding kaligayahan.

siguro panahon na para hayaan ko ang aking sarili na makaramdam muli. salamat 'insan at minulat mo ang aking mga mata.

[read: this is my first entry typed in filipino. amazing.]

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Wednesday, August 16, 2006

:: *reaLization* ::

and now i realize how much pain i feel inside.

i've been lying to myself for so long. i thought i could handle the pain. i thought i could bare seeing my one love with someone else. but no, i cannot. it is just too painful.

i have always imagined myself as that person. now, my dreams are forever shattered.

i thought i could be friends with the other...but i cannot. i need to retreat.

i feel like crying...but it's too late now. too late to get what i love back.

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Friday, August 11, 2006

:: *happy* ::

last night JT asked me if i was happy. i quickly replied "yes." i really am HAPPY and it's not because i don't have any problems but because i know how deal with all the crap in my life.

"shit happens. you just have to wipe it off with tissue." -samantha nunez, my cousin, i love her

believe me, a lot of shit has happened in my life. this may come as a shocker to most of the people who know me but i do go through pain. i do not get everything that i want. for one thing, my senior year didn't start right because i lost the election. i love love love love love the student council and the feeling of defeat was as if a boyfriend, that i truly loved, broke up with me and replaced me with a new person. yes, i do miss it but what can i do? instead of moping around i choose to help out whenever i can and besides, a lot of opportunities sprung up for me. i would not have agreed to join any of the "clubs" that came my way if i was elected student council president. so in the end, it all worked out for the best.

there are times when stress gets to me and i feel like i'm doing too much. when these moments occur do i give up? no. i let it out. i talk to people who will understand. i go to those who will listen. most importantly, i slow down. sometimes people move too fast that they forget to enjoy the scenery and they tend to forget where they're going and why.

currently, i have a lot of problems and sleepless nights but i still love my life. i guess, over the years of dealing with so much pain i just learned how to filter out the bad...or maybe my heart has completely frozen up that i don't feel anything anymore. either way, i'll just keep on going. i hope you will too.

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niKay wrote this story at..
7:23 PM
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