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Tuesday, September 26, 2006

:: *interrogating terrorists* ::

the sports fest is something that everyone looks forward to every year.

this year, it was something that was supposed to turn things around. it was our last spark of hope.

today, when they gathered the entire high school body in the AVR, our whole batch, the seniors, was zealous. this is our last year and we want this year to be our year.

in the end, i realized that this year is just plain crappy. the sports fest can't even save us from the torment that we face everyday.

two basketball varsity members max. blue instead of red. january instead of now.

*big ass sigh*

oh well. c'est la vie.

i have to stop thinking about this.

i have other things to worry about; specifically, the geneva conventions and interrogating terrorists.

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5:59 AM
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Sunday, September 17, 2006

:: *pump up the animo* ::

two down, one more to go.

i took the ACET yesterday and boy was i surprised. i expected a harder test. i expected a test that would make full use of all my brain cells. i expected a test that i would not finish.

im not saying that i'm surely going to pass ateneo it's just that the ACET was far from what everyone expected.

now, im preparing for the last test that i will take..the DLSU-CET. im feeling a great sense of anxiety. a lot of people have been telling me that the DLSU-CET is the hardest test im going to take. that's just great.

i really want to get in DLSU. i do not know what i will do if i fail to get in. my body will probably just shut down.

pray for me. DLSU is the one for me.

PROPS:

1. JEREMY TABERNERO - thanks for the ride..and great patience for me and lou...haha...

2. GOLD NAVEA - thanks for letting me and my friends cut in line...and entertaining me while waiting...*hug*

3. SAMANTHA NUNEZ - thanks for being a great (Atenean) cousin...and for bringing LOU to the high school buiLding...*super tyt hug*

4. LOU "BLESSED WITH MONEY" ORTILLA - thanks for being there! you made the ACET super fun! this was a great bonding moment...too bad you won't be taking the DLSU-CET...*blessed with money*

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4:10 AM
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Monday, September 11, 2006

:: *second term* ::

today was the first day of the second trimester...

1. i hyperventilated and was sent home. this is a normal occurence for me but this time i believe it's an omen of what's ahead this second term.

2. i was sent to the office because t. angie thought we [we: bea, france, debbie, edmarl, alex and fenelle] are involved in an organization that requires recruitment of members [read: fraternity, sorority, gang, and such]. wow. are you kidding me?? you are so0o0o0o0o talking to the wrong person.

3. the seniors will have a lunch meeting in the HQ [CAT headquarters] tomorrow. this means that we are going to talk about something big and from what i heard it's not going to be nice. ooooooyyyyyy.

4. the dummy for the school paper hasn't been finished yet. as editor-in-chief, i get the blame. even if i did my part and more...i still get the blame. wow.

5. i might once again be sent to the office for reasons that i cannot explain here. aysusmaryosep.

these are terrible signs for the first day. first term was crappy, but i believe that second term is going to be crappy-er. ooooyyyy.

this is supposed to be a fun and easy-going year but it's turning out to be one my worst years, if not the worst year ever.

save us.

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5:36 AM
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Thursday, September 07, 2006

:: *land of make believe* ::

[Disclaimer: this is not addressed to anyone. it's just my creative juices flowing. so france, if you are reading this...relax.]

i'm in a place....

.....where we can run through the field together all day.....
.....where daisies, dahlias, and orchids surround us.....
.....where the weather goes perfectly well with every move we make.....
.....where we can show our true colors without being afraid of what others think because we have no one else but each other.....
.....where life can just pass us by and we wouldn't care at all.....
.....where we can happily position ourselves beneath the stars, and patiently wait for each other to fall asleep.....
......where just hearing you breathe strikes so much joy within my soul.....
.....where we can talk about everything.....
.....where we can fly to the sky and swim with dolphins.....
.....where pain does not exist.....
.....where no tears fall.....
.....where we are free to feel.....
.....where i can hear you laughing and see you smiling.....
.....where you feel for me what i feel for you.....
......where i can hold you close, and smell your sweet perfume.....
......where our hands fit perfectly together.....
......where your warmth destroys the coldness within me.....
.....where everything is perfect.....
.....where i never miss you because we are never apart.....
.....where we can actually be together.....

one might wonder where this place might be. it's in my dreams. it's in my heart. it's in my soul. it's my land of make believe.

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2:46 AM
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Sunday, September 03, 2006

:: *life is STILL beautiful* ::

if you look at my entries from the 11th of august to the 2nd of september you will realize how fast my moods can change.

amazing is it not?

i've been blissful, sad, semi-happy, down right depressed and in need of help. wow. crazy self.

sometimes, all i do is watch the sky. if i watch the sky too long won't life pass me by?

Slow down and enjoy life. It's not only the scenery you miss by going too fast - you also miss the sense of where you are going and why.

going too fast? me? i don't think so. i might be going too slow, if not, i might not be moving at all.

i'm only sixteen for crying out loud! i need to stop stressing away my senior year. i must stop focusing on the negativities of my life. after all, i do have a very comfortable life, the best set of friends, the greatest parents and the most awesome brothers. i have a lot to thank God for.

i must crazily live life once again. sure, i may face a whole lot of stressful situations and i might not always get what i want but i'm sure God has better plans for me.

i can still save the world. i can do it. now, if superman comes along then that would just be too wonderful.

nothing is too wonderful to be true.

life was, is, and always will be beautiful it's just that sometimes not everyone can see its beauty.

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2:02 AM
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Saturday, September 02, 2006

:: *why i need superman* ::

[Read: this entry may or may not be based on real emotion. do not talk to me about this entry but feel free to leave a tag.]

my world is slowly but surely falling apart.

the things i planned for are not happening.

there are times when i do not see meaning in life. there are times when i wonder if i will ever be happy again. behind my smiles and laughter there is a scared little girl who is afraid to feel again.

i always strive to make sure that the people around me are happy. i save them first. i forget that i need some saving myself.

someone once told me that i should not be afraid of taking risks. i followed that advice. i recently took a plunge. i let my guard down. i allowed myself to be vulnerable. i allowed myself to feel. what happened? i was shattered. i felt an emotion that i haven't felt for so long...and i didn't like it. now, i put up stronger and taller walls to hinder me from feeling...to hinder me from hurting...to hinder me from being human. i have once again frozen up.

where is my superman? where is that one person who will save me from all of this? is he saving someone else? is he lost? is he even there?

i need you. i need you here with me. who are you? come to me and we'll fly away together. please, please...save me.

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niKay wrote this story at..
4:35 AM
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